Everything is somehow more fucked up but I have even less confidence now. And it’ll be impossible to sleep since my fan is broken. Another five days without food and back to tap water tomorrow. I’ll have to pay a 6000 peso fine when I finally leave and go back to… Where?  I have nowhere to go back to… Thinking about finishing it again. I am a total failure of a human being. I’m shaking I’m so wrong. Help?